9:45am: My kitchen was a reck, I wasn’t even dressed nor were 1/2 my kids (still aren’t) & I have a BAZILLION things to do today (did I tell you I went without a washer for like 2-3 weeks?!!!).
We really should be doing “school” at this hour & there was a time (& still are some days) that this would have totally stressed me out. This morning I embraced it & reminded myself that these moments of a messy kitchen from all of us cooking & living together are precisely WHY I choose to stay home & educate my kids. It’s these moments that add up in our heart & these moments I want them to remember NOT checking off boxes just to say we did something & prove (to myself) I did something with meaning (according to someone else’s standards). There are going to be gaps in my parenting, in my homeschooling & even in pointing them to God – but isn’t that what Grace is for? Isn’t that where my trust in Jesus comes. I’m not enough. I can’t do it all. But when I let go of my own agenda & give Him charge of my day – the most important work gets done because His Grace is sufficient for each day. This is what living in the moment is about & doing the next thing. This moment was about spending a late morning breakfast with my kids & just like that – 30 minutes are gone & we are on to the next thing… Moments matter. There is a time for everything & just because my day starts like this or has blocks of time that seem like we aren’t doing what we are supposed to – if I am doing what He leads me to – we are exactly where we need to be.
(*and now that is facing the piles of laundry & rotating kids through chores, math lessons & reading times…)