Pregnancy #8. Wow! I’ve done this 8 times?
And not one of them has been “easy.” Being high risk is hard. From about the 20 week mark I begin to experience contractions & other signs of preterm labor. It is uncomfortable & pretty emotional. No one knows why my body does this but it seems to be the norm for me. It doesn’t matter how much I rest or how much water I drink – I do everything my doctor tells me to & I still have contractions throughout the day. To make it even harder this pregnancy has an added strain – for the last few months I have been experiencing heart palpitations. Without any physical activity my heart will suddenly begin to race, which causes shortness in breath & sometimes even leaves me gasping for air (Like over 100bpm while I am just sitting). I literally feel like I just ran a 5K, several times a day. So this week I went to see a cardiologist & had blood work + an EKG done. Praise God the EKG was normal & the doctor is certain I have nothing major to be concerned about regarding my heart. It is most likely hormones or even the way I am carrying the baby. To be sure, I will be having an echocardiogram done soon. In the meantime I am “taking it easy.” Go ahead & laugh – we all know that is easier said than done. Especially when you have 2 little girls to chase & clean up after all day! But some days (like today) my body leaves me with no choice.
I think about a quote I recently read from Ann Voskamp, “That everyday you do the hard things that you don’t want to do — you are building the family you always wanted to have.”
So here I am embracing these hard days in hopes of giving baby Tellan more time to grow & safely join our family.