People ask me all the time “how do you do it?” The answer is I don’t. I fail constantly.
And tonight was just one of those nights life was completely overwhelming.
When I step back & look at the whole picture I fall apart. Like ugly uncontrollable crying. UGLY! It’s too much. And it really is.
I am struggling big time with this public school thing. Having a high schooler, homeschooling 2 elementary kids, + a preschooler + a toddler + a newborn anytime now. And suddenly at 8pm they are all hungry – depending on me, 2 are fighting, 1 just wants my attention, another is into everything & another needs help with homework. It’s too much at one time. I fell apart & writing this I’m holding back tears…
Well, crying doesn’t magically make it all go away. So I do all I can – I take 1 step at a time. That’s all God calls us to do, just one step at a time. He doesn’t ask us to do it all – at least not all at once. All we have to do is keep our focus on Him & just take one step closer.
Tonight instead of focusing on all the steps I missed or stumbled or complain about baby steps instead of sprinting, I’m going to just thank Him for all the steps I did take & continue to depend more on Him & less on myself.